Baby steps.

Well its been a week since I was able to blog and the things that have happened...or not. Lets start with my diet. Did I go raw this past week? Somewhat. Yea I did try to eat raw, but as eating raw takes planning and preparing ahead of time (if you want to eat something other than salad that is) I ended up snacking on some junk like food too. But this week I went to the stores that sell the raw nuts I need and have the organic veggies you can't get every where so I would have the supplies I need. Today I had off from school and the TV has stayed off all day (except when Lorelai watched a Veggie Tales video), so I have been pretty productive. I made a raw Marinara sauce to have with my zucchini this week. I also made a vanilla creme sauce to have on fruit for when I am needing some sweet. I also made a raw ranch recipe that has no dairy to have with cut up veggies or salad. I am soaking my sunflower seeds and almonds so I can make my "not tuna pate" to eat with my salad at lunch. And I made coleslaw yesterday. So I will be eating well the next 5 days. As raw food has no preservatives it only stays for 3 to 5 days. I need to get on a rotation of making meals so that I don't waste food but have a variety too. Now I just have to stick with my commitment to get healthy. I signed up for the Biggest Loser at work, and I know if I stick this out I have the potential to win. (Yea!) But for some reason even though I am very competitive in some things weight loss has too much negative history for me. So no matter what the scale says I am not going to let a good or a bad weigh in pull me down, I am in this for the long haul. I want my 50th year to be the year I got my weight down and got healthy.
   Well I did it. I signed up to sell the kitchen items at home parties. I was so excited, then the next day I just panicked. What if I can't get people to book a party with me. What if I have a party and nobody comes. (yes that has happened to me). Sometimes my inner shyness just comes out, but I am stepping out. I will ask friends, acquaintances, and strangers to have a party for me. I will make it fun so people will want to do it again. I will go to the meetings ( I hate meetings) so I can get excited about the products. I will go all in. Don and I need to be able to save for a car (once we get our ends to meet).
I am looking forward to the parties...its just getting bold enough to ask someone to book the party. That's where I will start. If I was back home in CT this would not be a problem because I have a lot of family and friends there that would be willing to help me out. Here I have friends, but not really. The people I work with I am friendly with so they are friends, but we don't hang together after work so not really. You know what I mean. But one of the reasons I took this job was to get to know people better and make some friends. A good way to start that is to open my house for a party and see who will come. I originally thought I would just have the party at work, but to me I think it would be nicer to have it at home.
I hope that you are challenging yourself to change or improve an area in your life this year too. If you are keep at it. Small and steady can mean success for the long haul. I pray that you will keep on trying, never give up!  Keep  me in prayer as I take this leap of faith and put myself out there:)
P.S. I love to hear from you. Your encouragement really is helping me on this journey. Although  I need to do this on my own, its nice to know I am not alone.