Feeling Defeated :(

You ever think you that the worst parts of you are getting better and then suddenly have something thrown at you saying "Nope you are still the same old same old" ? Well I did today. There are parts of my personality that I don't like at times. My question is: is there ever a time when I will be finally better and this will not be an issue for me any more? I wish I knew.  I think I want a job where I work with all adults. That way when I say something stupid unintentionally they will either call me on it or realize it was not intentional. When I say adults I mean mature adults. Oh well I have so much I wish I could say but I am afraid if I share my heart fully on this subject it would be used against me. I know I do not sound very Christ like today. Hence the title. Well thankfully we don't camp on Good Friday....Easter is around the corner. If you are reading this keep me in prayer that God will help me to be more loving and caring for those around me. And that on those stressful moments, He will give me wisdom and peace to say and do the right thing always.  Tomorrows another day...